The things that break my heart..

Weird what motherhood will do to you, these are now the things that break my heart:

1.Spit up: every time she does this I think shes going to choke to death

2. Clipping fingernails: we tried this once, it ended up in blood and tears, blood on her part and tears on mine- I have decided she will just have the worlds longest fingernails until I can find someone to do this for me so I can leave the room or possibly the city (they do this at the vet office, why not the pediatrician office?)

3. Drug addicts/prostitutes/etc: every time I see these people it makes me think.. you were SOMEONES BABY!!! its just too sad..

4. Scary movies: ok.. so it doesnt break my heart but now I have absolutely no desire to see a scary movie, wont even watch previews, theres too much to be afraid of in the world I dont need to make things up...

5. Pain baby cry: its true, the crys are different when shes in pain, I heard it when I cut her fingernail and its the worst sound in the world... worse even because I caused it...By the way, shes fine, barely nicked her finger..

6. Gas: I know bretts brothers are going to laugh at this heading, but when Ari has gas shes squirms and looks so uncomfortable and theres nothing I can do.. poor baby...

Its true, you dont ever feel pain or love like this until you have a baby, both for your baby and for your partner- my love for Brett has increased exponentially! I want more babies ASAP!! lol..Brett however is quick to remind me of the last 9 months, I forgot.. HE REMEMBERS!!! LOL...


Love you all!!
Michelle and baby Ari